Saw a picture of a volcano
Feel like lying in the molten rock
Sometimes I get so desperate to feel something. Anything.

This month is what I'll call a peanut butter jelly sandwich month; some bits of rough peanut butter that's hard to swallow, some smooth chirpy jelly parts, and that mundaneness of bread.

My peanut butter is just a very bad programming course. I've never had an angrier programming lesson. It's that kind of lesson that after you get out of that class you wonder if you will ever sit in it again, just felt so lousy. Jellies came not too cheap. Got a new phone (because my phone died on me) and went for Open Water Course at Tioman. The bread part must be all the work and chores.

Hope your August is as eventful and even more joyful!

SO you peeled my prawns, sent me home, on good days had picnics, on others watched films.. Are you in love with me?

Occupational distraction

Remember we used to laugh and say
no one understood our way
and there were times
when you would cry
while knocking
on my door
I was there
to shelter your pain, oh

Do you sometimes feel as though in your life, you lose time? You don’t lose them in the way that they fly by you, you lost time when you’re unable to remember certain moments or points of your life, which when tried they’re nothing but empty spaces of whiteness. I think I lost time. The last real memory of anything I had was the reeling of love in bed after a brief awkward telephone conversation. It only happened a minute ago because now I’m here, using my hands to reel a second time of the bait I lost to the fishes in the ocean. I’ve a long way to go, more reels to take in, more breaths to hold, more seaweed to pull. I don’t think we lose time like that, we only lose ourselves of the moments.

Nebulae

I love it when I see acrylic paint has such textures, especially on paintings. It's so expressive and beautiful. I'm dying to have such textures on my sketches. People around me love photography, fashion, cinematography and I think it would be awesome for me to have friends who love painting. We could paint together. I'm not professional, nor did I take any lesson for it and I would not want to bring it to class because I want painting to be something I learn, and not taught. Something which I find from seeing and feeling.